Okay, Allow Me A Few BLUNT Questions...

Okay, I'm sooo sick of all the hints people around me are dropping. If you have something to say to me, say it. Don't pussyfoot around dropping stupid hints so I have to follow you around like a cursed bloody puppy dog. It's not fun. Honestly, don't tell me things, treat me like shit, then call it coincidence. I don't believe in coincidence. I believe in people being assholes, trying to cover up how much of an insensitive jerk they are. If you say, "Oh, I usually say 'I'll call you back' then never call" about the people you don't want to talk to... I may very well remember. Don't try to cover up the fact that you said, "I'll call you tomorrow" and never did, by saying that I'm an exception.- 'Cause you STILL haven't called.

Honestly, do these people think I'm stupid? Do they think I don't see anything? I'm not daft, I can see what's going on... I can take a fucking hint. And don't try to confuse me by saying, "Oh, I didn't mean it at YOU."

Like hell.

If you don't want me around, say so. I'd rather have you shove me away with blatant words than have you lead me on like some lowly pet. I'm a person. I have feelings, however much I try to cover them up.

So why do these people drop hints? What do they want from me? Do they not realize that I have other things to be puzzling over than what it is THEY want ME to do?

Yeah, I know. I'm cynical. Big deal. If someone had treated me like a person, and not a SERVICE, I might be a little more personable.

Maybe.

Or maybe I like being this way. Sure, it's tough... But I'm a lot stronger than everybody else. I don't care what other people think... It's only a matter of time before I start blowing them off completely. What does it matter? People are replaceable.