Yea. I've noticed. Sucks, when you don't have any real friends. Grr this is soo depressing. That and my mom's bitching at me for every little thing today- I think the heat finally got to her. Agh *covers ears* Make it stop already. This won't be a pleasant post, I can tell you that.
So about the friends thing.... Wonder what I should do? Should I go and find new friends? How do I do that? All my life, everything's just fallen into place for me, I never really had to try to get friends... Maybe I'm a jerk or something... Maybe they really didn't want to be my friend in the first place and I just couldn't take a hint... What if I'm an awful person?
How do you make new friends?
Semester hasn't started yet.
I don't have a job yet.
How am I supposed to do this?
I don't even think my family likes me anymore.
*headdesk*
I hate my life right now, I really do. What I wouldn't give to be normal. Just once.
What does that even mean anyway? What the fuck is normal? How do you be normal?...
Well aren't I in a lovely, cheerful mood today. Rant about the city, the friends, the family, myself, social standards... What else can I bash in the confines of one little post and not have my computer explode from all the negativity?
Yay stupidity. I should just stop now, while I'm sort of ahead. No sense whining about the things I can't change. If I don't have friends now, I never will... Maybe I don't want frinds anyway (lie). And who wants their family to like them? Pah, lame... (I do.)
And Normal? What is that? Who cares what's normal and not. Maybe I should just flip off life and do whatever I want. (That's not a good idea.)
Or maybe I should just shut up and do some serious thinking about what's wrong with everything I've written here. I do want friends, and if my family can't like me, then who ever will? As for normal- screw it. I just want to be happy. And I don't think that's too much to ask.
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